exam takeover

do teachers honestly expect kids to take 7 exams in the same week on stuff we've learned the entire year? i find that mind boggling. seriously no one can remember two semesters worth of stuff in 7 classes and get good grades on all of them. i pretend i know the material really well truth is i dont know anything. i sit and make flashcards i sit and review material for hours.. come back and dont remember a thing. thats no fun. i find music instead of studying. but sometimes i do get a lot of stuff done. just not regularly. the only good part about exam week is there are half days and then break starts and theres no worries anymore. christmas break to me just means sitting reading and watching movies. nothing else. i love it. i love finding good playlists and studying to them. best way to study ever. okay back to work if i get focused.

I wish I were 4 again

No one cares what you do, you dont get in trouble, you don't have a care in the world, the only thing that matters are the toys you have. you get to go to sleep at 8 and the world you know consists of endless Barbie dolls and yummy food. You don't know half of the things the older kids know but it doesn't matter. You hate taking baths and brushing your teeth. Sharing is a sin and crying just means you're tired. When you want to be happy you smile when you don't you scream and it's not a felony. then a few years past and you grow up. You learn that every little thing matters toys become for little kids and are replaced with textbooks and binders. You're lucky if you're asleep by 11 and your world consists of school and turkey sandwiches- maybe something different on a good day. You kill to take a shower and brushing your teeth is refreshing. You learn that sharing is what you want to do and if you don't you're a selfish bitch. Crying means you're genuinely upset, and you stay up late at night and wake up with mascara residue on the pillows. you start to feel bad for yourself and then you realize how much you have to be thankful for and how little other people have to be thankful for. I wish I were 4 again.

You Don't Know Me Ben Folds feat. Regina Spektor

when one life ended, many began

11/22 has more meaning to me than most people. 11:22 was my friends favorite bible verse, and the time she passed. she loves teal and butterflies and her favorite song was dynamite and she was the most loving caring person ive ever met. she was 15 and only two days older than me. i see her everywhere i see her looking down at me i see her when dynamite comes on randomly and when a teal butterfly flutters by in the middle of the winter.  i wish i couldve said goodbye and seen her again but i moved and only saw her a few times since then. i dont really understand but i know it happened for a reason. i wore teal today in honor of her and i know she wouldve loved it. she has touched so many people its ridiculous and makes me want to live my life like she did. i can't wait to see her again one day but until then i keep thinking and praying and she keeps shining down. in honor of her, her friends and family have started an organization and built schools and houses in uganda for little boys and girls. the houses are teal- of course and its so cool that one life could bring many lives together to bring other lives together. thats what i want to do. in our hearts forever, mckenzie noelle wilson. 
caregivegrow.org

a lil somethin

i have dreams but i cant see myself achieving them. ive always liked pickles.  ate a whole jar once. puppies are one of the few things that instantly make me smile. i find new music and fall asleep to it every night before i sleep.  if youve ever seen me im most likely wearing a sweatshirt. my past has sculpted who i am today. my personality, my hobbies, how i view things.. everything. thats not how i want to be anymore.  i hate feet. i love watermelon gum. i am religious. im still trying to figure out which way to turn i have no idea where i want to end up. i wish money came endlessly so i could travel around the world and give it away to people who need it. i have a big heart but a little head. im pretty sure ive grown to be dumber.  i dont even think that makes sense. people younger than me call me 'adorable'. im short. i love diving into a pool in the summer. i hate ignorant people. i hate when people say like too much. like one time i was like watching like this movie and like the guy like ate like a popsicle and like it was like filled with like ice and like this flavor like juice stuff... shut up you dont sound nearly as cool as you think. i hate when people think the world revolves around them. im flexible. i love the little rascals. im very indecisive. i could go on forever but its getting pointless.